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Saturday, November 13, 2010

Dotting the full stop of My High School Life

Yesterday was really a sad day.....
no no.... it was a BEAUTIFULLY SAD DAY....
I cant believe time passed so swiftly and yesterday was my last school day in High School...
well we didn't have Graduation Ceremony (i wonder why)
All of us were sooooo reluctant to accept the fact that we're not gonna experience what we've experience in this passed 5 years anymore, never...

I wasn't expecting myself to cry, but when my class teacher started saying things like how much she loved us, how much she like teaching us, at that moment, it really hit me that I'm so gonna miss all these wonderful things that happened in my life...

Especially My Awesome Friends....


I wasn't expecting to take loads of photo, so I brought my compact camera(which I didn't charge) just in case, to take a few photos of our class only....

but damn it, wished I brought the DSLR, really want loads of photos with all my friends....

anyways, the battery managed to last until our class took our final still-wearing-uniform shot...

5 BungaRaya is the best class...
I really really Thank God that I'm in this class, everyone of us is just.....BRilliant!!
and They are not just classmates, they are FRIENDS
Friends that make you laugh, make you happy
Friends that care for you, worry for you
Friends that always help, always talk and always listen
Friends that sing, gossip, play, joke, study.....(etc) with you....

I will Miss You All....

some photos that I managed to take yesterday....

5 Bungaraya Memories...


Our awesome form teacher : Pn. Roziha

Aren't they cute??

Craziest photo that I took with my girls...
nvr stop laughing when I'm looking at this photo....
BRilliant Girls

BRilliant Guys



I will miss this beautiful painting that I see whenever I look up to the sky in the morning....

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

7x7

Went back to hometown for my grandfather's (sort-of) memorial...
as usual, had to deal with loads of smoke from the incense sticks
but at least it's the last time =)
and my cousins officially BUKA PUASA edi - okay, not buka puasa, "buka vegetarian" would be the right word - after 7x7 = 49 days of vegetarian lifestyle
yea....ate loads of good food, gonna be super super fat....

Well 28th of OCT was my little cousin sister's bday
and there was Chocolate Cake -- FAT

Happy Bday dear!!!

Then the next night, went to this uber cool Chinese Restaurant call Peking Restaurant
The food was like super nice
we ate Peking Duck, some kind of Pork Ribs, Tofu and lotz more......it's just super delicious....and and...FAT
Some random photos that simply proves that we're cousins lol!!
This is Baby Milo gang

This is Black and White gang, (we both have striped pants LOL!!)

Bunny Gang

Mentally retarded bunny

Discovered something in my cousin's house
The New Xperia X10 Mini!!!!!
Which is endorsed by CN BLUE!!!!
it's sooooo damn cute weih
sorry, blur image


My Breakfast on the Last Day!!
Mantau and Curry Chicken and Teh C *Thumbs up

My cousin gave me tonnes of chocolates
as if I'm not fat enough...
Had Kinder Bueno, Kit Kat, Smarties, Ferero Rocher, and some kinda of chocolate potato chips....
I think I'm super duper FAT now.....

anyways, random post =)

owh owh
had a pretty nice bday yesterday,
many friends wished me in person (which I'm very happy of)
Thank You soooo much LOL!!

Monday, November 01, 2010

HI!! MY NAME IS CARMEN CHOONG!! ------ 真的很想念你

公公, 你离开至今也有差不多50多天了,
但不知道为什么, 我好像还是无法放开你,
可能我还是不能接受你已经离开我们的事实。
记得上个星期三回婆婆家,
习惯性地和舅舅舅母们打招呼后,
就在往婆婆坐着的饭厅前进时,
我看到你在电话旁的椅子上坐着,向我微笑,
当时真的有被吓到,
后来再看一次,原来是那张在你的祭坛旁,套上了你的衣服的椅子。
当时我以为自己疯了,但是回想一下,
你的笑容真的很灿烂,好像是在欢迎我回来,
原本觉得这次回家是毫无意义的我,顺间觉得你就在我们身边,
而且很高兴看到我们一家人回来。


我还记得,向婆婆打招呼时,婆婆冷冷的回了一声,
就这样,我看出了婆婆脸上的憔悴,
看来婆婆到现在都未曾放下你。
听阿姨说,婆婆最近动不动就会发脾气,
老是说着你走之后,他任何事都不会做了,
晚上更是会在房里哭泣,
也常常会责怪自己为什么没有好好照顾你的健康,
更常常叹息你怎么会那么年轻就离开,
依我看,婆婆时时刻刻都还在想念着你,心里充满着思念,愧疚,遗憾和打击。


不过坦白说,公公你也走得太突然了吧?
你也够狠心的,一声不响的就走了。
我记得婆婆刚从我们家回到你家才不到一天,原本以为一切风平浪静,没想到你就在当晚悄悄地走了,不吓到我们才怪!
当爸爸对我说你已经去世时,我,除了泪水之外,一切都瞬间静止了。
真的,真的,我的心马上停顿了一下下。
心里想说,这怎么可能?
爸爸你在说什么?
怎么可能?  明明前两天才和你通过电话,
你还问我妈妈和婆婆去了哪里,
你的声音和我之前所听到的一样洪亮,
哪来什么问题...... 但是为什么?
为什么你要走?

很多亲戚都说,你这样在睡梦中离开是很有福气的。
我也非常相信,我知道你是一个很棒的人,很疼爱儿女和孙子们。
我知道你会早起,叫你的宝贝孙起床,
也会帮阿姨买早餐,也会到菜市场买菜......
还有还有,我知道你很酷,
最爱看新加坡Channel 5的英文戏,从中学习英文,
听说你也有看Fringe,公公你真是太酷啦!
真可惜我们没机会一起观看和讨论剧情。


记得两个星期前大舅舅说要和我们一家人吃饭,
当时我还傻到以为你会和我们一起吃饭,
后来想到自己再也没有机会和你吃饭,
心里真的,真的很难受,
还偷偷地哭了......
我也常想到,你不能来参加哥哥和我的毕业典礼了。
记得那天是我第一次看到你穿西装大衣的样子,
虽然是躺在棺木里,但是觉得你超帅的,
心里更想像着你披着大衣来参加我们的大学毕业典礼,订婚仪式和教堂婚礼的样子。
但这一切是不可能了。

但我想,我现在应该放下你了,
我会永远都想念你哦!
也希望你现在能好好地休息!

不过,现在我真的很担心婆婆。
婆婆这样下去不是办法啊!
我记得那天和婆婆一起看电视节目,
是一个美食节目,正介绍着高雄的打狗饼。
做打狗饼的老板娘失去了他的孩子,(老板娘是个单亲妈妈)
老板娘也是非常伤心,
后来他的孩子托梦给她,要她学做打狗饼,然后分给单亲家庭的小孩吃,
同时也叫老板娘不要为他伤心,要打起精神做人。
婆婆看了之后,眼泪马上留了下来,
在一旁的我也不知道如何是好。

所以说,公公,你也要帮帮忙,
让婆婆振作起来,勇敢地活下去。
希望你也能像老板娘的孩子一样鼓励他,
把她心里的遗憾和悲伤都带走。
真的很想看到婆婆再次微笑,也希望他能够安稳的入眠。

我又想到一件事,
我记得你每次见到我,都不会叫我的华文名字,
而是叫我Carmen Choong
现在想想,我很久都没用这个从小就存在的英文名了。
好吧,今天是我17岁生日,那么从今天起,我就是Carmen Choong Jia Wen 了。 哈哈!
那以后别人叫我的名字时,我都不会忘记这是你曾经称呼我的名字!

p/s : 其实到现在我还满怕看到你的灵魂 ...... ^.^"

p/p/s : 我超超超想你哦!

p/p/p/s : 公公,你干嘛不和我们拍多点照片才走啊? 我们连全家福都没正式拍过呢。现在找到的都是十多年前拍的照片了。

哈哈,是公公抱着我的照片!

2009 年 12 月在云顶First World Hotel Lobby 拍的。
这是我和公公最后的合照了。

Love Nuffnang

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